Oh my. Things have been a bit rough here today.
I was feeling pretty good – maybe even a little smug – that I haven’t been tempted by any artificial foods yet this year. I expected some small cravings, perhaps a few longing stares at the Pop-Tarts in the pantry that were provided by well-meaning relatives. But no - none of that. Nada. Nothing. Zilch.
Ah, but then a holiday arrives. Quite the humbling experience. My first trouble started earlier this week when I was in the gas station and noticed that Cadbury Eggs were on sale for 2/$1. Not only that, but you got 200 Speedy bonus points! 200! Yes, the Cadbury Eggs make my teeth hurt, but I do so love them. And Mini Eggs! Mmmm, mmm, mmm. I started to feel a little sorry for myself thinking that this will be an Easter without Mini Eggs and Cadbury Eggs.
But that was the least of my problems. Today, I arrived at work to find that my boss left us each a small bag of chocolates – a piece of Ghirardelli peppermint bark that proudly proclaimed its artificial flavors on the front, Hershey’ Kisses (regular and dark), an Almond Joy and a Snickers. I was downright salivating at the prospect of eating that chocolate. No joke! It was pretty sad and pathetic.
I spent hours (well maybe not hours, but longer than I should have) scouring the internet for the ingredients in the chocolates. Did you know that the ingredient list for Hershey’s Dark Kisses is to be found nowhere online? After some back and forth deliberation, I had convinced myself that the dark kisses were probably all right, and I, er, ate them. I did put the rest of the candy in our office’s community bowl.
So I was feeling pretty good about myself. I had managed to overcome some massive temptation with only a minor deviation (in my mind) from my eating plan. Oh, if only that were the end of the day! But it wasn’t…….
At lunch, I went to the salad bar shop and got myself a salad like a good whole foods adherent. I picked a vinaigrette that I deemed probably had the least possibility of harboring any undesirable ingredients. Then I swung by the local peanut shop to buy my husband some cajun nut mix as a Valentine’s Day treat. While there I picked up some candies for the kids and decided that I should treat myself too.
I picked out some wasabi covered peanuts and some cinnamon roasted almonds. Ok, they were actually cinnamon candied almonds. The peanut shop roasts their own nuts so I deluded myself into thinking that these would be a-ok. Well, after eating them, I decided that was a mistake. The fuzzy headed feeling that was my constant companion last December returned.
So after dinner, I hand out the Cajun mix and candies to my family, and my sweet 5 year old offers me one of his candies. Of course, I can’t say no. Of course! And then my dear aunt left us a Russell Stover’s box of chocolates, and we all had to - *had to* - try a piece.
Now the kids are in bed, and I really feel like crap. But I figure the day is already shot. So what better way to end the evening than to have the last of the sugar-laced grocery store cupcakes that my parents brought over. Yes, it was a bad ending for a day of bad eating.
So there you have it folks! This is why my experiment has to be an all or nothing thing for me. Otherwise, those two Hershey’s Dark Kisses turn into candied almonds which turn into chocolates which turn into sugary sweet cupcakes. The real bummer about the whole thing is that the cupcake probably broke my Lenten fast from eggs. I keep trying to tell myself that St. Valentine’s Day is a big enough feast to eat off-plan, but I know I’m just deluding myself again.
Seem to be pretty good at that today. :-(
I was feeling pretty good – maybe even a little smug – that I haven’t been tempted by any artificial foods yet this year. I expected some small cravings, perhaps a few longing stares at the Pop-Tarts in the pantry that were provided by well-meaning relatives. But no - none of that. Nada. Nothing. Zilch.
Ah, but then a holiday arrives. Quite the humbling experience. My first trouble started earlier this week when I was in the gas station and noticed that Cadbury Eggs were on sale for 2/$1. Not only that, but you got 200 Speedy bonus points! 200! Yes, the Cadbury Eggs make my teeth hurt, but I do so love them. And Mini Eggs! Mmmm, mmm, mmm. I started to feel a little sorry for myself thinking that this will be an Easter without Mini Eggs and Cadbury Eggs.
But that was the least of my problems. Today, I arrived at work to find that my boss left us each a small bag of chocolates – a piece of Ghirardelli peppermint bark that proudly proclaimed its artificial flavors on the front, Hershey’ Kisses (regular and dark), an Almond Joy and a Snickers. I was downright salivating at the prospect of eating that chocolate. No joke! It was pretty sad and pathetic.
I spent hours (well maybe not hours, but longer than I should have) scouring the internet for the ingredients in the chocolates. Did you know that the ingredient list for Hershey’s Dark Kisses is to be found nowhere online? After some back and forth deliberation, I had convinced myself that the dark kisses were probably all right, and I, er, ate them. I did put the rest of the candy in our office’s community bowl.
So I was feeling pretty good about myself. I had managed to overcome some massive temptation with only a minor deviation (in my mind) from my eating plan. Oh, if only that were the end of the day! But it wasn’t…….
At lunch, I went to the salad bar shop and got myself a salad like a good whole foods adherent. I picked a vinaigrette that I deemed probably had the least possibility of harboring any undesirable ingredients. Then I swung by the local peanut shop to buy my husband some cajun nut mix as a Valentine’s Day treat. While there I picked up some candies for the kids and decided that I should treat myself too.
I picked out some wasabi covered peanuts and some cinnamon roasted almonds. Ok, they were actually cinnamon candied almonds. The peanut shop roasts their own nuts so I deluded myself into thinking that these would be a-ok. Well, after eating them, I decided that was a mistake. The fuzzy headed feeling that was my constant companion last December returned.
So after dinner, I hand out the Cajun mix and candies to my family, and my sweet 5 year old offers me one of his candies. Of course, I can’t say no. Of course! And then my dear aunt left us a Russell Stover’s box of chocolates, and we all had to - *had to* - try a piece.
Now the kids are in bed, and I really feel like crap. But I figure the day is already shot. So what better way to end the evening than to have the last of the sugar-laced grocery store cupcakes that my parents brought over. Yes, it was a bad ending for a day of bad eating.
So there you have it folks! This is why my experiment has to be an all or nothing thing for me. Otherwise, those two Hershey’s Dark Kisses turn into candied almonds which turn into chocolates which turn into sugary sweet cupcakes. The real bummer about the whole thing is that the cupcake probably broke my Lenten fast from eggs. I keep trying to tell myself that St. Valentine’s Day is a big enough feast to eat off-plan, but I know I’m just deluding myself again.
Seem to be pretty good at that today. :-(
1 comments:
A slip up is bound to happen at some point. You are doing great though! I am impressed at all that you have cut out and how well you are doing.
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